its not quite clear if i could possibly be less surprised....

anywho. going to ze beach soon.
can.not.wait.

i havent been to the beach for real in a very long time.

plus dalton will be there.
i think im falling.
:)

welll i got my classes scheduled for fall
i wish i couldve gotten the ancient european history class...but oh well

I got in :)

Southeastern has answered me about admissions...
siggghhh makes me nervous
i mean i see no reason i wouldnt get in. i have the grades, the gre scores, and i turned in everything.
i hate bureacracy.

i love having a puppy in the house
dana is so cute
right now hes chewing on his foot

and yes hes a boy. named for something michael used to say.
i figure its a good way to remember him
were gonna get some art that he made and put it up in the living room.

i wish he was still here

offense implies oversensitivity
assumption implies self doubt

if you assume someone is judging you, it probably means you dont like what youre doing

hatred is a strong word, that in many cases can be relapsed with sadness
its not hate when you cant do it anymore
its pain

turns out michael hung himself.
wonderful.

also, why is it only guys i dont want all up on my bubblegum are the only ones all up on my bubblegum?
cant a boy i actually want to be with actually want to be with me too?
im not like sad about it
just irritated
fred was like waaaahhhhaaahhh at nats thing and i was just thinking Really??? REALLY??? YOU broke up with me. dfljhd
sorry i didnt want to take you back
my bad.

i have better things to do k thanks.

lordy lordy its graduation day

ive never lost a friend
until today
im never taking drugs again

it hurts worse than i thought it would

ill never get to see him again
i cant even go to the funeral because its in alabama

my heart is breaking for him and for his family.
its not fair. it wasnt his time.

i will miss you michael beagle

if i could make that clock turn back its hands, id hold you close and make you understand
that life is sweet, and short, and fast so come back babe, well make it last.

hmmm....i have to be a grown up??? no want.

also, no want people to make a bad decision.
but lord knows no one can listen to me.
unless im wrong of course, then everyones all ears lol

i want the best for all of us, but i also know that the best isnt going to come on certain paths
make your own decisions of course, but dont be surprised.
dont get offended by my words, for they refer to several people i know, not just you.
i just hate to watch people i love get hurt.
and its coming.
like it or not, its coming.

but. i wont lecture. bc all that ever does is piss people off.
so, do what you do and ill sit here and watch with cautious optimism.
ill be here for the good and the bad.
i love you all so damn much.

just thought you should know

"find another one of my friends so we can talk about you"

excuse me?
is it any of your goddamn business who i fuck? i will fuck whomever i want, whenever i want, and theres no way in fuck that its anyones goddamn business.

and why the fuck should you fucking care who i fuck??
are we dating?
am i youre fucking property?

either you are being fucking territorial or you are fucking interested in me and were too much of a pussy to fucking say anything about it.
if youre being fucking territorial then thats just fucking stupid bc my cunt actually belongs to me and if i want someone to put there dick in it i damn well will do it.
Or you are actually interested in me and then thats youre own fucking fault for not saying somehting about it.
i tried to get you to come over but you shot me down again and again.

fuck. you

well damn now im just hornier than i was before.
crap.

hmmm feel better about life now. i should get laid more often

i smell like boy
num num num

nummy clean boy after sex smell

omgogijogijigj SEVEN MORE CLASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DLKFJSLDIFJSLDIJFLSIDJFLIJ

chad got a girlfriend.

it kinda sucks.

not that i want to be with him or anything, god knows.
i just wanted him to be alone and miserable for the rest of his life.

Attract me
till it hurts to concentrate,
Distract me
stop me doing work I hate
Just to show him how it feels,
I walk past his desk in heels
One leg resting on the chair
From the side he pulls my hair.

Amy Amy Amy
Although I've been here before
Amy Amy Amy
Hes just to hard to ignore
Masculine you spin a spell
I think you'd wear me well
Amy Amy Amy
Where's my morel parallel

It takes me
half an hour to write a verse
He makes me imagine it from bad to worse
My weakness from the other sex
Every time his shoulders flex
The way the shirt hangs off his back
My train of thought spins right off track

Amy Amy Amy
Although I've been here before
Amy Amy Amy
Your just to hard to ignore
Masculine you spin a spell
I think you'd wear me well
Amy Amy Amy
Where's my morel parallel

His own style
right down to his Diesel jeans
Immobile
I can't think by any means
Underwear peeks out the top
I'll let you know where you should stop
From the picture my mind drew
I know I'd look good on you

Amy Amy Amy
Although I've been here before
Amy Amy Amy
Your just to hard to ignore
Masculine you spin a spell
I think you'd wear me well
Amy Amy Amy
Where's my morel parallel

Creative energy abused
All my lyrics go unused
When I clock black hair blue eyes
I drift off I fantasize

Amy Amy Amy
Although I've been here before
Amy Amy Amy
Your just to hard to ignore
Masculine you spin a spell
I think you'd wear me well
Amy Amy Amy
Where's my morel parallel



tuhtuhtuhtuhtuh.
i hate not getting what i want.

k. done feelign sorry for myself.

oh good. its thundering and pouring, everyone is out. and i have to fucking study for my italian midterm which im going to fucking fail.
fantastic.
if there was a way to never have feelings for anyone ever again i would seriously consider it.
i just want someone to be happy laying next to me.